Badum… Badum…
My heartbeat constricts around my ears.
Badum… Badum..
None of my family are here. Of course they aren't ,what did i expect ? They looked at me as if I was madman just because I have ambition - a dream to escape the slums we call home. Kalai had similar dreams but of course nothing but praise is said about him. They were beaming with pride, boasting to every neighbour and friend about their perfect angel who protected them from monsters. Just because he was too weak to make it back ,I’m supposed to give up my chance at fame? I snatch a drink from the waiter who scoots by my position.
Gulp!
Good thing when the purge was announced2Participation in the purge is considered separate from military service I signed up before those parasites could stop me. My hand trembles as I take another sip of the juice. I don’t understand Mum, I came back. I'm strong enough, stronger than Kalai ever was. My throat runs dry as I finish the drink and discard the glass onto the bare floorboards. Why is no-one here for me? I'm a hero too.
My thoughts are interrupted as a giant of a man approaches me. His attire is even more prestigious than that of the other guests, his decorated uniform cloaked in more metal than cloth. Even his face radiates status. His right eye is hidden behind a glistening golden eyepatch, his thick moustache perfectly groomed, his heavy neck layered in folds of fat. This must be the general - my future father-in-law, the one who sees me for who I am!
"Well Sir, I am honoured, You must be the -" I stammer
"Ah! The commoner." He grins. "I hope you're doing well, son?"
"Oh yes, thank you for-"
"Good , Good, my boy! I expect you are prepared to serve your double term , I'll personally see to your deployment"
What? What is he talking about. I notice the other guests begin to perk up at our conversation, passing something between themselves. Double deployment..? Does he want me to serve in the military on behalf of his daughter?3Males may choose to serve additional years on behalf of their female relatives I suppose it is the chivalrous thing to do. I'd owe it to my new family.
Badumum… Badumum…
My heart hammers in place as I notice men from the rows slither towards me. Without saying a word a crumpled paper is produced from their hands and forced onto me.
"Sign it Boy" The general booms, his moustache coiling around his lips. My damp hands unfold the sheet and I stare blankly at the scribbles that populate it.
What a fool.
I scowl.
No.
I blunder forward up to the priest, forcing my expression back to a tense smile. The should-be-trivial walk stretches into a winding crawl, the stalking stares of the guests following every movement, hammering my heart into a distracting hum. Each step betrays me with the squeak of pathetic leather against the floorboards, while somewhere beyond the walls faint, almost imaginary bells continue to ring. With a heavy sigh, I reach my rightfully earned place in front of the woman who actually deserves me. The only person who appreciates my courageous actions from the purge. My mind drifts to the fond memory of my return, a letter written in ink worth more than the house I lived in, addressed straight from the general. Apparently his daughter heard of my epic slaying of the illusionist4The narrator was part of a squad of 20, who slew a violent sorcerer instance., and specifically requested for my hand in marriage. And now that very admirer is here in front of me - my ticket to being someone.
Badummm
What is wrong with my heart? Am i just excited? I try to refocus myself but I find my gaze wandering back to the rows of guests still staring expressionlessly. At least Dad isn't ; his face is locked to the floor, back hunched, shoulders slumped over some sort of sack. In fact, most of the guests are carrying the same sack. Some fidget with its golden ribbons; others make clumsy attempts to conceal theirs in their pockets. A wedding gift from the general? I don’t even see the general at all in the crowd - maybe he went to deal with the parade7There is religious parade occurring in the city on the same day as the wedding. But then why get married on the day of the Flowist festival? Why not wait a few days, this marriage has been moving quickly already. No , I'm being unreasonable . The word stings as a painful memory flashes through my mind. Saffire's voice replays in my head telling me that I - . NO NO NO This is my day. Saffire is in the past, irrelevant compared to … I look back at my bride. I don’t even know her name?
Badummm
It's just a Dragonist tradition - all of this, this is how elites act.This is normal, it’s the best day of my life.My breathing begins to settle. I force my mouth closed before I start panting like a frightened dog. Through the haze I attempt to refocus on the words being spoken. "Obligations … Obedience" The priest articulates each word slowly and carefully ,like a performer. Looking over at his huge desk , I see he's now holding a gavel. My eyes pivot back to the main crowd - rows of benches, raised stands on the side, a witness box ; I'm in a courthouse.
My shin explodes in pain as my bride's foot drives into my leg.
"Stop looking around weirdo…" she hisses "the others never"
What the hell? She struck me?
dmmmmm
The sound of my heartbeat melts into one endless hum, drowning every thought beneath it.Two rough gloved hands snatch my own and pull me out my trance as the priest finally goes silent.All eyes turn to me.And all at once my mind snaps.Is he waiting for me? , Why are there so little people? Why are the bells ringing? What did i do wrong?I tremble as the veil in my mind finally shatters. Something is very wrong here. I need to leave. What would Kalai do?
"Well do you? " the priest asks inquisitively not noticing or maybe not caring about my hesitation.
"Um actually I think I nee-"
"Great" the gavel crashes into the table, and he turn to my bride "and do you…"
Oh God, please save me. I'm not strong enough….
Nothing except a single statue with triumphant red eyes.
Saffire I'm sorry, if you are willing will you be my family?
And to God, please protect her.
1Military exemption may be granted for pledging to raise 3 children (biological or adopted) within 5 years, or 5 within 10 years for couples
2 Participation in the purge is considered separate from military service
3Males can choose to serve additional years on behalf of female relatives
4 The narrator was part of a squad of 20, who slew a violent sorcerer instance.
5 The narrator is 19, his bride was found to be 28
6 Saffire has partial heterochromia
7 There is religious parade occurring in the city on the same day as the wedding